07.15.09

I'm having trouble getting to sleep lately. I know as soon as I get to be unconscious he will be talking to that fucking cunt online. Maybe watching her stupid cam show. God Damnit.

It's on my mind constantly. I can't get away from it. Every time he says he loves me I see "I love you", written to her. Every time he says "You're so pretty", I see him gushing all over the screen about her. And any time he starts running his fingers through my hair, I see him say "I want to brush your hair". It makes me want to fucking cry.

Is a needy, psychotic 18 year old girl from California really going to drive us apart?

Really?..