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04.24.10
Amsterdam Ave & 59th Street bus stop.
That's where I sat, tears streaming down and my body shaking as I held my hand to my rouged cheek.
I don't exactly remember, but I do know that he grabbed me by the back of the head and pulled my hair.. so that's when I slapped him. Or maybe it was a punch. Before I know it, I'm filled with rage, my purse is on the ground and I'm coming after him with fists swinging.
I knocked his lens right out of his glasses.
(It was always loose, though.)
When he hit me back, my head rang like a church bell. I ran over to the bus stop to sit down.
I wanted to get up, but I was so shocked, so hurt, so.. wasted. And I wanted to get out of there, I was a little paranoid that the hospital staff saw us walk out. I wonder if they saw him rip off his hospital bracelets.
Ugh, flashbacks of the damn cops trying to help me restrain him. People on the street watching and laughing. I cursed out a group black guys walking along, and albeit hilarious in hindsight, at the time I just wanted to burst out into tears.
"He's a lucky guy."
That's what the paramedic said to me while we we're in the ambulance.
All I could think about, is how this is my second time in a NYC ambulance. And how lucky a girl I was when I was the cargo in that ambulance. How lucky to have a guy who would still stand beside me... even after I did something terrible.
I told him last night that we were through.
I can't possibly mean that.
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